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towerofjamjars2012-09-27 03:39 pm
beknightedheroine) wrote in towerofjamjars2012-09-27 03:39 pm
"How has your character developed?" The Man, The Meme, The Legend
Because introspection is fun.
Basically, exactly as stated - how has your character developed throughout their time in the tower, from their state upon application? Feel free to be as TL;DR: as you want, becauseI want to read all of it this is a writing based hobby, words are what we're here for!
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Basically, exactly as stated - how has your character developed throughout their time in the tower, from their state upon application? Feel free to be as TL;DR: as you want, because
ARBITRARY RULES:
->Post your characters as a header
->Reply to your comment with explanation!
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Sayaka Miki
canon point!
(It's pretty obvious none of that would be okay at all, but what could she do? She'd just driven away Madoka, or believed she had. She couldn't say anything to Kyousuke because of what she'd become...)
--And then she woke up in the tower.
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and then everything changed when the pod nation attacked
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Equius Zahhak [AU]
Lancer | Fate/Prototype
Re: Lancer | Fate/Prototype
During the bodyswitch event, he ran around trying to make out with everybody, not even stopping to think that it might be creepy or that people would get angry. It took Kido slapping him to make him realize that he shouldn't have done it, so he spent the rest of the week trying to apologize. And to make it worse, he started getting Ruler's memories, so for a little while, he actually thought he was Ruler. Her reaction during the aftermath also drove in how much of a jerk he was. So now the fact that she's just taking the higher road and ignoring him? It's driving him nuts. It's another one of the long list of things that he feels guilty about. He just wishes she could punch him and get it over with, so that she no longer needs to blame herself for what Lancer did. Since she's living in the tower right beside him, he can't just forget about this guilt.
But all this shit is his own fault. So try not to offer him any sympathy
April Sinclair | OC
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And then April arrives in the tower. At the start, she was perfectly fine with being on her own and just working to help others, never letting anyone get too close. She was unsure and almost scared of everyone, because she didn't know if they would use her or betray her or whatever. And in her mind, actions of certain residents seemed to only fuel that idea, and so she retreated further behind her wall.
Her first major change was during the whale attack, though sadly this change was a backslide. What was intended to be acts of wanting to keep her safe, April viewed it as a sign that she wasn't strong enough to take care of herself, that she was weak. This, in turn, caused her to close off even more and to throw herself into training and fighting; she though it was all she was good for, and if she was thought of as weak, then she wasn't worth anything. Though, just when she had started to fully convince herself of that, she finally made her first friend in the tower, who was Naoya Toudou. And having April finally call someone her friend was a big step for her; she was still a ball of issues, but now she didn't feel as lonely as she was before.
Of course, she still find it hard to talk to people, but she's slowly getting better. And then the Shadow event happened. And considering how April had been very private about how she really felt? She did not like this at all. And it didn't help matters that the one person who saw her Shadow in it's 'fully glory' is someone she doesn't trust and is incredibly wary of, and it didn't help that he seemed to consider it all a show. But her Shadow did make her realize that she is Very Not Okay, in contrast to how she acted like she was fine before, and she resolved to try harder at changing, to maybe stop thinking that everyone is out to get her. This is still a work in progress, and will probably be a very long one. But her encounter with her Shadow also meant she was more willing to act like the monster she considered herself to be, resulting in her violent streak becoming more prominent.
Her development got a... I guess more positive turn during the Bodyswap event. While she was terrified at someone else seeing all her memories, there's one thing that was said to her by Naoya (DeSu Naoya this time) that finally gave her some sense of worth, after having thought herself as worthless for so long.
''I wouldn't have thrown you out if you were my child.''
And that meant... a lot to April. More than she wants to admit, to be honest. And this also marked the first time she willingly let herself cry in front of someone (though she was in a different body at the time). She was put into a vulnerable position, but her fears of this being used to hurt her didn't happen.
So now, while she's still socially awkward and has trust issues, she's trying more to open up to people and to attempt to make friends, instead of pushing everyone away. Though she's also a bit more violent and unstable due to events in the tower. But she's trying to get better... slowly.
Xion | Kingdom Hearts
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Yes this counts I DO WHAT I WANTBABY IS NOW AROUND A YEAR AND A HALF OLD. Still doesn't know when her birthday is tho (spoilers: it's April 8th in the Tower - THANK YOU DAYS FOR HAVING A CONCRETE TIMELINE).
A tiny bit taller. Starting to fill out a tiny bit in the chest and hips but not too much because what are consistent food supplies (except on Dax months) in the Tower to make sure one is getting the proper nutritional value for growing. Her hair probably is a bit longer than the icons show, reaching around the middle of her neck. Nowhere near as long as Kairi's in KH2 or Namine's, but still longer.
Skillwise, her canon skillsets/abilities have been refined a fair bit from training with the first Aqua while she was here. But much more prominently, she's been training with OU Reno to learn some alternate fighting styles and he's been encouraging her to rely on her Keyblade a lot less, or use it differently than the way she has thus far. She knows a fair bit of hand-to-hand combat that he's been showing her, and how to wield her Keyblade the way Reno does an EMR.
Even in general, when she uses her Keyblade the way she used to in Days, she relies a lot more on fast movement, dodging and quick strikes than she used to. Despite all this, Xion still gets pretty antsy if powers are nerfed for whatever reason and she finds herself unable to use her Keyblade. Nearly a year's worth of having it drummed into your head that your only worth is the Keyblade will do that to you.
Also she has tried to learn sewing. And has made two shirts - one overlarge sleeveless one and one with sleeves. Neither are very warm though and the stitching is a little awkward. Sewing has not come naturally to her at all.
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Kanaya Maryam | Homestuck (Red Dead Virgo AU)
Jin Shirato | Persona 3 [AU]
Re: Jin Shirato | Persona 3 [AU]
This is the state in which he came to Animus in February 2012. A completely and total anti-social cynic who hated everyone that wasn't Strega (especially the Persona-users, eventually coming to hold particular vitriol for Yu Narukami, the Minato that led SEES, and both Female Protagonists of P3.) Initially, he and his roommate Shinjiro were on speaking terms, but other than that he tottered around the Tower, screwing around on the network and arguing with people. The news that he could die, but that this death wasn't permanent has had a more long-lasting effect on him than he realized; though he still doesn't fear it, isn't afraid to kill people, and in fact sees death as a tool to help him get ahead, he doesn't really quite consider it "death." In a weird way, he simply sees his life ahead of him almost like that of an immortal, and though initially he was distraught, this fact no longer bothers him. He never saw death as a release, only as an inevitability that he accepted. Now "death" isn't really a thing anymore. At least, not in the distant or near future.
But before all that, he cultivated an instant hatred for the tower admins for pulling him here, and basically didn't care. Needless to say, he wasn't phazed by the monsters, and being outside of the limits of the Dark Hour meant he let go of his attachment to it and the Tower of Demise pretty fast. Most people he talked to were on the network (hell, that's how he met Sayaka), and he kept a pretty low profile.
The Labyrinth event was the first time anything really happened to him. He teamed up with Strega, ended up killing Minako, the Handmaid, and Ken at the end when he was losing control of Moros, and almost got killed by Shinjiro before getting killed by Chidori. None of these deaths he really cared about or held against anyone personally (nor took responsibility for). The nightmares as a consequence of losing struck a nerve, but his philosophy of "live in the moment" kept him from worrying about it too much. He completely fell out with Shinjiro after that, on account of Jin killing his girlfriend and Jin also being spiteful that Shinjiro's persona had ascended and he was still stuck with a murdersona. But, whatever, Shinjiro sucked anyway and he was dead in Jin's universe. Who cares.
And then the Infighting event happened.
Being in Jason's pod was practically a return to his childhood, which Jin had never been able to quite repress or forget despite the trauma. At first it wasn't so bad; dare he say, it was tolerable. Though he didn't fancy having brain surgery again, the chips that Jason gave him were able to keep Moros in line, and for the first really memorable time in his life, he remembered what it was like for his mind to be quiet, to not have a murderous harbinger of doom constantly whispering in the back of his mind about imminent demise. He didn't even care that his thought process was more mechanical-- and it's actually made him better at programming in the aftermath, though it leaves a bad taste in his mouth to think back on it now. For three weeks, his volatility and anger was gone, and he was actually something much more close to his canon self; the sane one, relatively calm, though his snark was pretty eased away. If it wasn't for the last week, he actually would've gotten along very well with his podmates afterwards. He already mentally cuts them some slack and gives them more credit, because they actually know what Strega's life was like, if only for about a month.
And then Ruana was a bitch, and the last week of the Infighting event after Jason was disqualified, it was Jin's job to do the surgeries on his podmates.
Besides the fact that he was under some fucked up form of more than mind control (which is less of a problem for him than you'd think-- with his loyalty streak, he's already less inclined to make his own decisions), he was doing the most reprehensible thing he could think of to not just other people, but people he had actually grown to have respect for, and what's more, people that he was close to. Yes, that kind of scientific experimentation is more reprehensible to him than death or torture, and it is basically the one line he would have never crossed of his own volition. Unfortunately, he did, and he didn't even get any memory loss for his troubles. To this day, he still remembers every operation he did on everyone, which has both given him a pretty good understanding of human (and troll and other species') anatomy, but also makes him absolutely sick of himself.
Recalling those memories still makes him sick, and for a long time afterwards, seeing any of the ones he operated on summoned this sick reflex. Because of that, he avoided most of them, and the only ones he had been able to safely speak to without triggering a gag reflex were Sayaka and Dave. For basically the first time in his life, he felt shame and remorse for his actions. At first, it was because he was the one who did it, and he didn't consider the other human side of the equation, though he was sure everyone would feel angry (he certainly would've). After talking to more people from the event, and them not blaming him for what happened (particularly Minato, Dave and Gamzee (go figure)), he even started to feel guilt over what he did. He simply couldn't stop dwelling on what had happened in the pods, completely throwing his previous life philosophy out the window.
But before he was properly able to feel remorse and shame, Minato was mind-controlled by Bluekat, and they went on a murder spree. In the pod, Jin had stopped taking suppressants, as he hadn't needed to; so once he got out, Moros was making his life absolutely hell. He couldn't take responsibility for what he had done, and he was freaking the fuck out about it. So they just went on a murder spree! He'd feel worse about this later, but mostly that just compounded the beginning of his gradual identity loss and loss of control the Infighting Event started. He was killed by Yu, and didn't really care. What bothered him more were Yu's words before his neck was cracked by that fateful Bus Stop Sign: "After all of this, you can't stand up on your own."
Jin had never been one for his own decisions-- again, he was the fiercely loyal type-- so that'd never really bothered him. But now he couldn't really bring himself to look at the rest of Strega, and without a leader, he was kind of lost. He spent a lot of time talking to no one, talking to Moros, hiding from anyone he could, and started doing a lot of work to keep himself busy. He built a lot of bombs and explosives in the mean time, and began stockpiling them (which he still has), worked on some more programs on his laptop, and thankfully Sayaka came along with a project to gather information on the network, which he's been using to distract himself as well. He'd done plenty of distracting himself before, but now he'd taken it to the max to avoid dealing with anything.
Some talks with Minato and Yu led to him slowly being able to talk to people from the Infighting event again, but it was still hard. Ken's persona ascended with little fanfare from Jin's side, and he got bitched out for being a wimp by Gamzee and it was really weird.
Sayaka and Jin's Return of OP-kun anonymous information project was greeted by Zo on the advent of September, and when Jason showed up to interrupt them, Jin'd had enough. They both stepped up to Zo's defense (rather uncharacteristic of Jin, but he had his strategic reasons. Unlike Sayaka he actually had his wits about him when it happened), and he was turned into a monstrous cat thing and forced to kill and attack one of his best friends, among others.
Oddly enough, it didn't...hurt his mental state as much as you'd think. It continues adding to the slow and steady destruction of his own personal identity, but he didn't care-- it was the last straw that broke the camel's back, and the last numeral on the despair counter before he hit 255. It was a really weird sort of release, and for whatever reason, it made him run out of fucks to give. The transformation was painful and he doesn't like the memories of being a blood thirsty monster, but compared to the Infighting event, it wasn't that bad. Another bought of inevitability clicked in his head; the admins were gonna screw with them, but he wasn't going to die, nothing was going to be permanent, and you know what? They'd actually gotten somewhere, despite the monster thing. Stagnation was the norm for him, and progress was different.
wow i can't believe i exceeded the character limit geez self
OU!Riku
Shion
also because hes been here the least amount of time
Then out of the blue his world got destroyed, he ended up in a horror tower and he freaked. And kept freaking because SCIENCE and also horror and nothing made sense. He freaked the entirety of December and somehow managed to stay alive and functioning until the January moving event where he got killed. He then proceeded to die three more times between them and the beginning of March thanks to a mixture of murder trolls, murder chocolate and murder teddy bears.
Trolls, chocolates and teddy bears all were added to his list of THINGS THAT SHOULD NOT EXIST OR AT LEAST SHOULD NOT MURDER YOU WHAT IS GOING ON WITH THE WORLD
He didn't develop much in that time exept to shut down with fear, his usual great thinking and working things out didn't happen, he read a lot and worked in the library but focussed on just getting past each day without his mind exploding from the fact YOU CANT DIE AND SCIENCE IS BROKEN ALSO THE WORLD HAS ENDED
Somewhere in all that mess he met Xion and Equius and they became friends. (Well in the case of the former. With the latter... their relationship remains interesting to this day but on Shion's part it is friendship.)
The murder teddy bears were interesting because Shion was helpless, he had to witness suffering and be able to do nothing about it. Something that he doesn't come across in canon (not properly anyways) until after the point he is taken from. One of Shion's largest flaws is that he will always try and do the immediate kindest thing regardless of the consequences. And he still struggles in gauging consequences even today. But being killed instead of letting someone die was a good lesson in that.
Then Reno arrived and Shion befriended him, first as a kind of annoying little brother who snooped in his stuff, winning him over when he tried to save him from stone vultures. Reno discovered Shion's habit of panicking during the collar swap and worked on stopping him from doing that. Slowly Shion came to be able to rationalise the fact that SCIENCE IS WRONG and THE WORLDS ARE GONE and ARGH WHY IS EVERYTHING I KNOW A LIE and start to think again.
May was probably the biggest jump forward in character development with Shion. The labyrinth itself was mostly uneventful, he somehow survived to Day 2, got betrayed and killed.
However his punishment was
more horrific and beautiful than anything I could ever devisereally bad. After six days of seeing Nezumi killed over and over again for Shion's crimes, mistakes and lack of knowledge Shion had cracked.He spent a while being broken, letting the anger that anyone had dared hurt Nezumi, and the hopelessness that he had been powerless to stop them mix with the guilt that it was all his fault. And then he went crazy and tried to kill the infirmary workers during a collar checkup.
He died. Worse, Reno was furious at him and that more than anything was what dragged Shion out of the daze of rage and guilt. After lots of crying Reno gave him a Turk pin and gave him a choice.
So Shion, derpy kid from No. 6 who names mice and reads to starving children became a Turk. Yup.
I am more amazed that Shion has the most positive character development arc out of my characters...
Anyways.
He trained with Reno and now he can kind of fight, keep a cool head in an emergency and is becoming more like later canon Shion with a Animus-Turk twist. He has a handful of new skills, he was even learning to swim before Maestro attacked.
Throughout June he was able to teach Xion and Reno his own skills of mushroom identifying and has no written a short book on the mushrooms and edible plants of Animus. He is also working on compiling a tower report for Reno. Going to his dead world shook him but not as much as it would have six months ago. Even when Reno disappeared as the space whale attacked Shion managed to keep a cool head and survive, with the help of Elena and Xion.
Of course there are still moments where he reverts, in June during the break ins he snapped at Xigbar for not caring that Reno was dead, Vanitas is pretty much enough to make him furious and also terrified; and he will probably die every time he faces him because he wont back down.
He still is fiercely loyal with a tendancy to beserk but his friendships are wider, if anything happened to Reno or Xion things would be very bad. And I'm not sure what he would do if a Nezumi appeared.
But out of all my pups he is the most functional.
I am actually impressed
And will shut up now.
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Rose Strider | Homestuck AU
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Rose is naturally an abrasive person with authority issues, so she wasn't particularly enamored with the Tower from the get go. The fact that her introduction week was during the end of the teddy bear event and she got to talk to an alternate version of her brother while he was in his death throes didn't really do much but cement her conviction that this place needed to be torn apart.
The problem with this is that despite how belligerent Rose is, she becomes attached to people easily and making sure that they stay safe will always take precedent over wrecking shit. The other kids here aren't the ones she knows, but Rose is fully aware that there's a core bit in every single one of them shared by the people she called friends in her own universe and that makes them worth protecting. She may not like all of them, but they deserve to be safe and happy.
Of course this is Animus so she very rarely is able to do much to fulfill that goal, something which steadily and increasingly infuriates her. During the Labyrinth event at the very least she was able to keep her friends fed and ready for the fights but it tore her up inside to see them dying (or going bugfuck insane in David's case...) and be unable to do anything more active.
All this building inner pressure (because Rose represses instead of talking anything out hahaha) is temporarily relieved when she's sucked into the admin competitions, as it gives her a clear goal to work towards - help keep Jason from winning control of the Tower. The horrible things she witnessed Jason's team going through only served to galvanize her hatred of the Tower at large and Jason in specific, but the fact that she was able to influence a 'better' outcome made her content for a bit.
Rose doesn't really have the sort of luck where relatively tranquil states of mind can last, although the newest speed bump to come into her life actually isn't Tower-based. Instead it was the arrival of Rose Egbert and John Lalonde, who combined to pretty much throw Rose's volatile at best insecurities and self-issues spiraling off a cliff.
While she's perfectly used to the idea of alternate versions of herself (even super briefly running into a Rose Lalonde) outside of time clones she's not particularly disposed to like them. Rose has serious issues regarding the way she views herself and the things she does, and she projects this onto her 'other' selves which results in disproportionate hostility and a pressing need to alienate and/or antagonize them as quickly as possible so that she doesn't need to be exposed to them any more than is absolutely necessary.
Rose Egbert is even more of a punch in the gut for her because not only is she an alternate of herself, she's well-adjusted. She doesn't struggle with her femininity or her capability or her guardian or pretty much anything from what Red Rose can tell. She's just a normal, cheerful girl with friends who seem to genuinely like her. And that's killer because it confirms something that Rose has idly kicked around a few times in her head - all of her shortcomings and flaws are her fault instead of a simply unfortunate genetic matchup.
On top of that there's a John who, while most certainly a Lalonde, isn't the one she knows from home. The fact that she's disappointed in the first place bothers Rose because it's admitting, even just to herself, that she's lonely and would really like to see a face that's completely familiar to her. He upsets her a lot more than she'll ever say because he has so many of the mannerisms of the John she knows but he's still not hers.
He's got his sickeningly perfect little blue Rose and his stupid doomed timeline and all the other little differences that pound at Rose until she just wants to break his face to relieve the feelings. She's outrageously hostile to him but it doesn't really make her feel any better, which in turn just fosters more anger.
She had (and still has, to slowly increasing levels) similarly ambiguous feelings about the other Striders here, but she feels less threatened by and more unsure about them than she does the Meteorswap kids.
Except for Bro, but he's a different can of worms all together. Rose is from a canon point immediately prior to discovering Bro's body, so for her he's still alive and a huge thorn in her side; although she's heard about other Striders losing him, she chalks it up to differences in timelines and nothing else. When Bro showed up Rose almost had an apoplexy and immediately tore into him, not even bothering to give her name (he still doesn't know who she is...). Bro has been the primary antagonist in Rose's life for as long as she can remember, and the fact that he's roaming the Tower now just means she has even more unwanted bullshit to deal with. It's not really been great for her stress levels.
And then on top of all of this, the shadows show up. Rose spends an entire week either running into demonic repressed versions of people she knows and dealing with their really uncomfortable secrets (she wasn't lying when she said you were a coward, JLal) or sprinting around the Tower to help keep said repressed demons from tearing the actual acquaintance apart when they ignored common sense and provoked it into going berserk. On top of that stress she has time clones constantly patrolling the Tower on the lookout for her own shadow, because she knew somewhere deep down that she wouldn't be lucky enough to avoid getting tangled up in this.
In the end they finally meet and Rose forgoes talking completely in favor of breaking its jaw and getting on with the battle. Not only is the fight more than she thought she could handle alone, the few hours that the shadow was wandering around undetected means an undetermined number of people were exposed to the inner (and really insecure) workings of Rose Strider. It's not a happy position to be in, and it exhausts her both physically and emotionally.
So, uh. Basically right now Rose is frazzled to hell and back, riddled with emotions she doesn't understand or even want to acknowledge, and furious at an authority system that she can't seem to touch. It's pretty much a recipe for Something Really Stupid to happen, so it's very likely that in the near future she's going to be trying to do something incredibly dangerous and poorly thought out.
She's not particularly worried about the consequences, as the revive rule is still in play. Rose also doesn't really expect anyone to care if she does end up biting it or fucking up in some other way - she assumes that all the people she'd give her life up for without a thought to keep safe wouldn't return the favor if the situation were reversed.
WOW THIS GOT LONG I'M SO SORRY
tl;dr Rose Strider has a lot of feelings and can't manage any of them
Zelda | Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time
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Zelda is pulled from immediately post-OoT. The Imprisoning War had finally been won, the Hero of Time was where he should be, the way he should be, and the Princess was ready to finally begin work on reconstructing her broken and battered country.
And then Jason and co. said NOPE. ~Welcome to Animus~
Zelda made her horrortower debut in early January, 2012 – right after
the DW movethat one time all the floors disappeared and there were monsters everywhere. Of course, she outright refused to believe the worlds had been destroyed. The Goddesses wouldn't allow it, so clearly whoever had kidnapped her was lying. And she would refer to the administrators almost exclusively as 'captors' and 'kidnappers', only using the term 'savior' when being sarcastic. And so she began her stay in the Tower, being an optimistic and determined newbie like they all start out as. It's rather easy to do when you find it impossible to believe everything you've worked towards for the past seven years has been for naught.January was fairly chill for Zelda, all things considered. The Tower only went up to Floor 25 back then, and having spent a good amount of time in hostile territory, she quickly picked up what she should avoid. Of particular importance, she met FemLink and England, two of her most influential CR. FemLink entrusted Zelda with her little secret after learning the truth about Sheik, but despite realizing Link was from a slightly earlier point in time than her, Zelda couldn't bring herself to tell her of their inevitable parting. The guilt over the selfish reasons for keeping that secret would come up now and again in later interactions, leaving tension in the air. Later, she met England over tea, and after some initial awkwardness over formalities, he regaled her with stories of various British monarchs, which she soaked up like a sponge. At this point she was really just trying to learn how to socialize normally after years of being a ~mysterious Sheikah bard~, and having someone to trust and someone to look up to really helped.
February was her wake up call. She was given a teddy bear to 'take care of' and told she was 'infected'. She was pulled into the Midnight Man game, which she faced with confusion and frustration. But she was not going to let the Tower's games get the better of her, no sir!
And then Ghirahim showed up. In a way, their meeting was useful as she learned of Hylia and her bloodline, but at the same time, she barely escaped with her life. And another was not so lucky. Shortly after Ghirahim's first appearance, SS!Link's limbs were strewn about the Tower in a gruesome display, with his bloodied torso placed in Zelda's bed as a 'gift'. She was Not Okay with this as one might expect, but thankfully her cries of terror were answered by the one who would become her first real cross-canon friend: Minami Arisato, Streganato's sister (remember that, it'll be important for later).
With Minami's help, she managed to recover from that trauma, though while she did, a certain little Hero of Winds arrived and stumbled upon her room. He asked her who she was and she responded with “Zelda, Princess of Hyrule” as always and he asked “Hyrule? You mean that flooded place?”
… Yeah, that went over well. That's the point where her self-esteem really took a silent dive, as she immediately placed the blame for her country's demise on herself and her actions. After all, even if she was trying to do the right thing, she was the one who sent the Hero of Time away, right? She was the one who doomed Hyrule to this fate, right? She didn't really confide in anyone about this (she couldn't really, with FemLink in the dark and no one else from her time who could understand), and the idea that, no matter what she did, no matter what her intentions were, she would ultimately fail everyone took root in her mind and began to grow like a weed.
Moving forward, dwelling on those thoughts was interrupted momentarily by the Valentine's event, in which WW!Link became a creepy stalker child, there was mild unresolved romantic tension between her and FemLink, she got beat up by sadistic!Samus, and she swore off chocolates forever. :|b The rest of February went largely without incident.
Then Hitori Kakurenbo happened. Both FemLink and Zelda were pulled into the game, and they stuck together like glue for the duration of it. This cam to bite them in the ass when, after twelve hours of hiding in a wardrobe, they were found by Captain Cinnamon Claws. In a fit of cruel irony, Zelda was transformed into a crystalline statue – though she remained conscious and aware – and her body was used to beat FemLink into a bloody pulp before shattering herself. Her revival marked her first real heroic BSOD in the Tower. The memory of being used to kill her best (and at that time, who she perceived to be her only) friend, of hearing her screams and cries of pain, of being completely and totally helpless to stop it, was simply too much for her to take in. She broke down sobbing, was found by some of her positive CR at the time, and later made a promise to stay by Link's side for as long as she would allow it (even though she knew she wouldn't ultimately be able to keep that promise, it was still one she took very seriously).
Moving into March, her recovery was aided by the arrival of Tetra (she had family again!) and bonding with Minami over Queen. Because it is a proven fact that Queen makes everything better, yes.
Of course, that all went to shit when Ganondorf appeared in the Tower. Needless to say, that encounter did not go over well and Zelda racked up her second death. Being used as a human shield sucks, fyi.
A few more weeks passed and remember Streganato? He becomes relevant here as the collar switch event takes place. Minami was one of the ones affected by the switch, and she became possessed by her fragment of Death. After learning about her subsequent murderspree, Zelda went in search for her just as her reserves were running out. Unfortunately, this is Animus and not a shojo anime, so her attempts at a “I know you're in there” fight fell on deaf ears. Streganato showed up then, saving Zelda at the cost of putting crazed!Minami out of her misery. Later, at a “friendship party” hosted by Willow and Aradia, she learned Streganato and Minami were brother and sister, and she promised Streganato she would look after Minami as best she could.
Then she met Gandalf. Almost immediately upon meeting her, Gandalf told her that she was the one who had to lead the Tower to freedom. That because of her bloodline, her Triforce, and her station, she was the one best suited for the task. She protested – remember that complete lack of self-esteem? - but Gandalf only said he did not believe he would find another who would be able to fulfill this duty.
Funny how that little word can get her to do just about anything. Her sense of duty warred with her lack of self-worth, and she went to England for advice on what to do. After a bit of talking, she recognized that self-worth or no, she was still the sole heir to Hyrule's throne, and if nothing else, she should try to gain true leadership experience for that purpose.
She would get her chance come May, at the start of the Labyrinth event. Many of her close friends had been taken to the Labyrinth, and she refused to sit around and watch them be forced to kill one another. She gathered up a small task force and together they broke into the inner Tower. After a good amount of fighting, they managed to reach the outer wall of the Labyrinth, where they encountered Jason. He was less than pleased that they sought to put an end to his experiment, to say the least. With a push of a button, he killed each one of her group instantaneously, making their efforts for naught. She spent the rest of the event sulking.
When the participants of the experiment returned, she tried to act normal for their sakes, especially when she found Minami on the verge of contemplating suicide after she learned the nightmares she experienced could be viewed on the network. Needless to say, that social link reached Rank 10 that day.
Then Jason had his little Q&A, pissed off the entirety of the Tower, and Gandalf was like WE NEED TO GET THIS FELLOWSHIP THING GOING. And Zelda cursed her sense of duty and said “okay fine.” So recruitment started. And with recruitment came the thought that she needed to be the image of a perfect princess all the time, or else people wouldn't want to follow her. So she became more formal, stopped correcting people when they referred to her as “Your Highness” or “Princess,” and generally started bottling everything up when around people she was not close to. Which wasn't much of a change from her seven years in hiding, but it was a bit more difficult to do after a few months of just trying to be “normal.”
She also began social linking with Streganato, as he appeared to understand the difficulties of being viewed as a leader.
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Taiki
spiral into sadness and sickness
I am a horrible horrible person.
He arrived at the end of September (three days from now, cry) and the tower wasn't actually so horrifically awful (for those whole three days). Keiki was there and though he had to go through the huge his world had ended and his king was gone he coped okay. He was sad, with the usual depression of being away from his king but he coped. However a run in with Dualscar (in which the troll lost his arm thanks to Gohran) prepared him for some of the horror to come.
And horror there was by the score, he was hit by Paranoia believing everyone to be against him. This meant relationships with newly built CR were tense and Taiki became more and more withdrawn. Adding to that was the body experiments which as well as terrifying and saddening Taiki gave him blood sickness.
When the compulsion came to kill it was Gohran who went out to hunt down experiments, literally torn apart between compulsion and nature Taiki (with Eridan coming along for the ride) flew off the tower and plummeted to his death. Thus ended his first auspicious month in Animus. And turned him into a sad wreck.
Keiki had disappeared and so Taiki found sollace in his roommate Eridan (who despite believing him to be a useless hoofbeast was actually fond of him). He even went to try and rescue him from his nightmare world (leading to a huge bout of blood sickness).
Despite being scared and sad and ill for most of his time in Animus Taiki does try to help, he joined Signless' revolution because he knew he could move through solid matter, he learned to heal; getting good enough to heal battle wounds in the whale attack.
The biggest thing that affects Taiki is his blood sickness. Even though this is reset everytime he dies it still is a great burden on him. The worst times were November to February where the Is this home event (in which he got to see his home torn up by demons), followed by the moving event attack, everyone hacking each other up for Valentines day and eventually the hide and seek meant he was barely functional. Drowning in blood though more terrifying than anything that had ever happened to him ironically was what made him better. And he hasn't died since then so he is incredibly weak once more.
The collar swap event taught Taiki that the tower could even take the control of his shirei away from him, Gohran killed jade!Eridan and many of his clones whilst Taiki was powerless to stop him, since then Taiki has been more careful though he still relies on the demons a lot.
He became very close to Erian and Willow, the former who put up with him and the latter who became like a big sister he had never had. Their disappearance hurt him a lot, made him more sad and a little less confident.
In May Taiki played right into the admins hands but there was no way he couldn't help, he suffered a long time for powerlessness and nightmares but for the most part saw it as necessary and even managed random acts of kindness (like taking Reno pancakes). The nightmares haunted him though, especially the ones where his people were suffering and blaming him. He had to also face the fact that his friend and roommate Ventus killed someone. It was hard for him to grasp but he knew that Ventus felt bad about it and needed help.
June was probably one of the biggest turning points for Taiki because once again his very nature was challenged. How was a holy creature meant to decide between winning: therefore condemning one person to death for every challenge won or loosing: therefore allowing the tower to be taken further into darkness and pain. How could he even wrap his head round the idea of voting for who would die. In the month in the pods Taiki began to doubt his very nature, the choice or lack of it as it were tore him up and he began to doubt his right to even call himself a kirin in a way he hadn't since his very first days of being taken to the twelve kingdoms.
Added to seeing those he cared about and looked up to hurt and killed Taiki was very broken and as they were finally let out Taiki was plummeted back to his dead world.
Coming back Taiki was taken right into the puzzle event where his confusion continued. And when he returned he discovered that Ventus had disappeared, Ventus who he had been dragged away from him in the pods and killed.
But then his king arrived and everything was bright.
The sickness was still there, the worries, the sadness but so was his king and so things weren't so bad. The whale event scared him but he managed to help and though he was very sick after his king ensured he rested.
Then he disappeared and Taiki was once again plunged into darkness, but darkness after a time of having light again is even more dark and Taiki isn't coping very well.
All in all though he has grown up, he has gotten sadder and more unsure of himself and his nature but in other ways more confident. He has had to learn to speak and act for himself and sometimes even has the confidence to ask questions.
All in all though the tower is destroying him, for holy creatures can not live in such poisonous environments
And I really am a terrible terrible human being.
Minato Arisato [AU]
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Just look at this post. I mean, Paranoia caused by the experiment aside, this is kind of just how he was about people.
Or look at his intro.
He started out trusting absolutely no one, not understanding why anyone would be so confused or give a shit about him metaphorically blowing his brains out or otherwise dying. It didn't much change. He went through some minor trauma hearing the voices of his team and his 'dead' sister, then Chidori came, went, came back...
He slowly started forming an uneasy not-quite-truce with Minami.
It wasn't until Hitori Kakurenbo that things really changed for him, because upon his death, there, Minami happened to let slip that she was his little sister. Then, they eventually talked about it, and he realized... all the time he'd been tearing her down because he hated her for looking like his sister, she had actually been her. They'd been fighting and no one knew.
Back home, Minato worked as a hitman, an illegal arms dealer, drug dealer--you make a request, he's probably your guy. As far as killings went, he essentially laid some ground rules, but nothing overly strict. "Are they an asshole? Do they have children? If yes to the first and no to the second we're gonna go get paid." He ENJOYED it, but it was always something he sort of kept locked up. The Dark Hour was their haven. He was resigned to his death within the year, and he knew it was unavoidable.
Minato has accepted this. Ever since Takaya helped him he went into the "live in the moment" ideal, just like the rest of Strega.
When he first met Narukami and his team, he had nothing but condescension and dislike. And also some ice. Because he really isn't an Ice King for nothing--he can be downright freezing to people he doesn't like. Up until then he'd sort of FORCED himself to be polite to others (his 'business' demeanor, so to speak), but he never told anyone the truth: he just lied. It was easier. He knew if he told people about how much he'd done, how bad a person he was, they'd just leave him anyway.
The rest of Strega (sans canine) has thankfully shown up since, and he was really relieved. He was starting to think maybe they could... live longer here. If they got an out, Minato isn't sure he'd take it, since his sister is here, right? And fuck the other Persona users was his attitude, all of the natural ones. Who needs 'em.
Then the Labyrinth happened, and... well. It affected him badly. He had to kill his friends; and by Day 8, he gave in and let Thanatos kill him. Because of that he was treated to a horrific nightmare in which he became the monster he feared he could be, killing everyone on Port Island during the Dark Hour, including all of Strega, and so on. It was horrifying, and it... shook him pretty bad, but instead of dealing, he just bottled it up like everything else.
Nothing much changed, really, until Infighting. In the pods he FINALLY started to respect Yu and some of his team, along with mostly anyone else there. It was his nightmare, his childhood all over again, but he did gain some allies and interesting insight there. At first it wasn't so bad, but he should've known it wouldn't last. Having seen everyone experimented on, being taken apart again just like his childhood... kind of started making him lose his grip on sanity.
So when he saw England, he did what he thought was the... kind choice, in the end. He didn't know about America. He also ended up breaking his relationship with Zelda forever, one he had tenatively built trying to HELP her, as Minami's friend, he wanted her to look after his sister, and he wanted to help her.
This is something he regretted, but he was determined to make sure everyone in the pods died before they could suffer more. Sadly, it didn't go so well. Of course he was lobotomized for trying to murder everyone and didn't really round back to being conscious of a fucking thing until Ruana took over. Then JIN of all people was forced to operate on him, and it was very difficult once he woke up not to cry, but he managed.
After the pods, he... came back to Minami gone, and finally broke down to Yu about the situation. Broken from her being gone, he went to look for her and was found by a then-slightly power mad Bluekat instead, who brought all the things he tried to bottle and put on a shelf out to the forefront. It also allowed Thanatos free reign. He gave into his Persona, he gave into the things he did every Dark Hour when he killed someone, and attacked a bunch of people, thinking maybe if he killed everyone THIS TIME they'd STAY DEAD. Better dead than in Hellhole Tower, right? Unfortunately, one of the people he attacked was Maya Amano, and he also killed Jun Kurosu, which kind of permanently also broke his chances of getting along with the P2 gang.
Whoops.
He also used Jin and Moros to help him later and nearly killed Ken; it was probably sentimentality that kept him from actually finishing the job, or whatever was left of him at that point. Then he had to be killed by Yu and the others... and woke up with no memory of any of this. It was a bitter pill to swallow, and he tried once more to do the right thing, to explain what happened, to try to set it right like he thought Minami would do--after all, something like that happened to HER, too--but it didn't... really go as planned.
When that failed he actually did a completely fucking awful backwards spiral off the character development train and went backwards, deciding he had to be an asshole to everyone and keep them all at an arm's length to keep them safe from himself. He was afraid of said Murderspree happening again, and he couldn't live with himself if it did.
Sayaka was actually the only person he really spoke to during this point, aside from Strega.
He restricted himself to places people often didn't come, ate only when necessary, and just sort of stockpiled on Suppressants. He even sort of withdrew from Strega. Eventually he made himself become kind of numb to everything, and this was when the Whale Attack happened--there, he had an interesting conversation with Naoya that... made him stop cutting his emotions off, but in a weird way... it made him think, too.
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Ventus | Kingdom Hearts
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Ironically despite being here the longest Ven is not my character that has developed the most o o p sVen comes just after the final battle against Vanitas, having just destroyed the X-Blade and thus being forced into a coma of undetermined time. At least, from his perspective. In actuality, he's been asleep for at least ten or eleven years already. He arrives in the Tower in roughly June 2011.
In though Tower life wasn't as bad in the beginning, it still wasn't that great. He woke to find Roxs with his damn face, but it's a mystery they got over surprisingly quickly, probably because of how easily they got along together. They've basically been best friends and roomates for over a year now, and anyone that knows them knows much about their ridiulous Stupid Teenage Shenanigans. Not long after arriving however, a phantsmic version of Aqua appeared before him, and Eiji attacked him, Roxas and Ienzo with some magical Purple Dinosaur Ice Bullshit, which didn't mesh well with his new phobia.
He's been mostly a passive observer of everything's that happened on the admin-side, keeping all the information, but having no idea what to do aginst them/what to do about them. It's almost hard for him to put their whole threat into perspective, as it's much easier for him to focus on what's in front of him and easily accesible, so he's only ever worried about them when Seriously Bad Stuff has happened.
One of those things that've immediately presented itself in his face is the arrivals of Vanitas and Master Xehanort, one of which ripped out his darkness again, and the other of which basically wrecked his Light over Darkness worldview, though reinforced his idea that the ends do NOT justify the means. He's a bit more neutral on the Darkness vs. Light thing (seeing as he learned Terra was stuck with the Darkness), but the present examples in his life aren't very encouraging. He learned the magic of the Deathical Reset when his heart balance was restored after a death, but that doesn't make him particularly happy to use it. Oddly enough, he's still bothered by the dying part.
He's grown close to a good handful of the residents, but for the most part keeps them out of his own drama and likes to handle it himself. He's still got an independent streak, and he doesn't want to endager them. And for the most part, he's avoided Xehanort and his double, whenever the latter has shown up. He's become a bit indifferent to the Tower's bullshit, though that doesn't mean he's accepting of it. I mean it's Ven, come on.
After a sizable amount of time of stagnation and just going around being a stupid teenager and being unproductive, being stuck in the Tower for so long has started to make him stirr crazy. He'd neglected his training for a while, and so decided to pick that up again to try and be...y'know, not stirr crazy. It's not really helping, even if the Tower is ever-changing, since he's still kind of stuck in the same place. So he really needed to do stuff!!
Around the time he starts training again, the Dream Plot happens, and he tries his best to go around helping people and it...doesn't, work. At all. It was kind of incredibly disheartening, especially seeing a lot of the things that people were hiding or had to deal with. On the flip side, some of them were even fun, and he was forced to quickly learn and adapt to a looooot of different styles of fighting when he went to different places and blended in to the dreamscape. Basically he got about a month or two worth of training in a week. It was awesome. But still kind of disheartening that he couldn't do anything.
He was still painfully ineffectual against his old Master (who he's...mostly accepted is a total douche, though not completely), his new Master's gone, and the first Aqua and Terra he encountered who he thought were basically the originals have left. He's kind of up the river by himself now, even though there's still his close friends and another Terra and Aqua here, but he feels kind of dettached, worried that they'll just leave again, and maybe even show up without remembering what happened here. Still, they're still his family, so he can't be completely. But that still leadsmore ot his independent, "I have to be more effective!" streak. So he's in some kind of weird place where he wants to make friends and wants to help, but he also knows that people can come and go REALLY easily, and then they might not even remember you anyway oh well.
Hysterically, after the dream stuff and the bodyswap, he has a better awareness of what's going on with the cast now that most of his other castmates, though he's knid of going the Namine route and keeping hush hush about it. He's also unofficially part of Team Hyrule, and is stuck in hero mode. Right now, he's also in Training-Like-Crazy mode, because that is basically all he knows how to do he was born to be a knight ok guys come on. He intends to learn how to fight with ~actual swords~ once I get around to not writing this and putting that post up.
Eridan Ampora (AU1/RDV) | Homestuck
Roxfallseveryonedies | Kingdom Hearts
even if i doubt it's gonna be coherent
or long
i am really bad at tl;dr-ing
this is probably going to be silly and nonsensical tbh
and was pretty oblivious and avoidant of the truth for a while because repression is roxas' secret weapon tbqh
oh and then the power went out for the first time, ven and him made a fire to pass the time, and then eiji fell for a phantom and went beserk and frozemurdered roxas
this is sort of the beginning of his long, awkward, weird descent in to the death brigade. for you see, he woke up after that death terrified as fuck of eiji. who, mind you, was his third room mate. so he would not sleep in his own room.
what happens when you don't sleep in your room? you die. so, on the dot, he died in a little ridiculous shanty he made in the library. CSI Animus eventually figured out "herp maybe you should sleep in your room instead", Eiji apologized, and Rox settled a little.
Outwardly.
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Hei [AU1]
canon + facility AU
Then came another middle finger in his life: the facility. He saw Yin again...and she died.
He met great people like Minako and Raven who were able to identify with him and help him out of his problems, with Minako bringing a needed cheeriness to his life by befriending he and Lucy, while Raven did the same, though was able to help more with the internal problems he faced as well simply by being an empath....They died.
Kirika became like a little sister to him to protect. Aside from her appearance to Bai, the two really did get along and he cherishes her as a part of his family, even if he hasn't said those words yet. Sadly...she died. Not once, but twice, and she even lost her memories at one point. She helped him deal with horrible memories, and since then, has become a major part of his support.
There were many others, but one to really note was Lucy. Yes, I talk about her a lot, but that's because (aside from crazy shipping emotions) she was a major positive force, even with some negatives. Hell, her negatives actually HELPED develop Hei more, making him care more about her life that much more quickly and want to see her get through everything. Unfortunately, when she had feelings for him, he didn't act on them at the time, afraid of what might happen as he has already lost so many people in his life.
Though by the time the date auction came, he finally let it loose and just didn't care, choosing to finally embrace happiness, even if temporary. With Lucy, helping her stave off the darkness in her heart, all that doubt and and violence her life brought, he stuck by her through thick and thin. He has lost her several times, and each one sparked a more intense emotion than the next, gradually getting him angry, but at the same time, it showed he cared and really gave a damn about her. It was through her, and everyone else I mentioned, lives that managed to put this great effect on Hei, dragging him out of his shell and becoming more apart of the facility as a whole, to actually want to help others rather than just focus on himself.
Were it not for Lucy, Hei might not have changed at all. Were it not for everyone, he'd be a bum again and drinking alcohol.
And then the Tower happened!
The Tower
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When he woke in a tower being told the world had ended he feared it was his fault, after all he had just flung a spear into a nuclear bomb; who knew what was going to happen.
At first things were alright; okay he was in a horror tower but it was more confusing than anything else. Everyone there was just as confused as he was. He met his first roommate Sora when he woke up; through time Sora turned into someone Suzaku felt he should protect. A friend of sorts. Though he struggled to know how to help him.
During those first few weeks he also met Signless and Psiioniic and they were the reason that things were so positive. Though he thought them terrorists at first they seemed just as determined as him to bring peace to their own worlds. Not believing their worlds had ended and working on getting out in order to go back to them, as well as Suzaku helping them against the highbloods of their world they became friends.
He also met Link and some kind of hero sense threw them together, Link was the cause of Suzaku's first death when they stole everyone's bed sheets and tried to climb down the tower.
Suzaku never told anyone about his life before the tower; some things to some people. He told Signless and Psiioniic about Geass when he was trying to work out if the Condesce had a similar thing on Psi. But no one knew about the Geass on him and no one knew what he had done.
He was liked, surrounded by protags and heroes instead of magnificent manipulative bastards he found a very small place among all the horror. Their were glitches of course; attempting to murder Psi and actually murdering Milagro under mind control were not his greatest moments and though he couldn't bring himself to forgive himself they did and they moved on.
And there was happiness, he wasn't alone. Psi and Signless just dragged him along when they planned things, forced him to watch troll rom coms. Suzaku was never happy; canon had happened after all, but things were better than they had been in a long time and so he sat tight and waited for it to all fall apart.
For a long time it didn't, he tried again to thwart the tower by helping in Signless' revolution, when he went to his nightmare world and witnessed life under Schneizel he actually got rescued by Signless and Minato (the ou one), he was able to protect people in the moving event.
Indeed it was February when it all fell apart drastically and it did so in the form of Minatos. Suzaku knew both Minato's; both of them were his friend though his and AU Minato's relationship had started off crazily. But they were friends and February pushed that friendship to the limit.
Starting on Valentines day where Suzaku became obsessively jellous of OU Minato thanks to Chocolate shenanigans, not helped by the fact Minato fell in love with monsters. After a fight Suzaku's Geass forced him to run away and leave Minato to his fate.
Suzaku's guilt rose and yet it wasn't very long before the hide and seek event...
His first few hours was spent hiding with Aradia, a girl he had never met before then, she was friendly though yet Suzaku could do nothing when she was killed; a thirteen year old dying of old age before his eyes...
He went to find Signless and Psiioniic and just happened to find AU Minato in the priocess, which meant that when he was found by a teddy bear his Geass forced him to betray Minato.
He ran away and hid under a bed until the end where his Geass ensured the ritual was completed and he won... Not since Britannia had a victory left him hating himself so much. He had spoken to the other Minato as well as he died and just added that crime to his list as well, and Nina, and all the other people he was unable to save.
Yet not all was lost, Signless and Psiioniic shoosh papped him back into sanity, believing he really was trying to give up betraying people and just finding it hard.
Though he never forgave himself he did accept their help and didn't hide away, they promised they would always be his friends.
So life continued though Suzaku's mental state continued to go steadily downwards, seeing all the doomed Aradia's die did not help, still he was convinced to go to the friendship affirmation party and that was probably the highlight of his being sociable time.
He had since February being waiting for the backlash and it came in the form of Jin. Jin having harboured his hatred since the incident and running into him by accident tried to set him on fire.
Truthfully it made more sense to Suzaku than Minato's forgiveness or Signless and Psi's promises of friendship. But the Geass prevented him from actually being set on fire and they fought.
So his first enemy and a whole lot of angst, he was spiraling down hill and then Lelouch arrived. Apart from opening a can of worms and canon point issues their first meeting was quite positive.
Less than a week later though the labyrinth happened and this was both positive and negative in nature.
Positive because Suzaku stepped into the roll of protector and leader; making the decisions and helping others. Negative because everyone died and Suzaku blamed himself.
He met with Riku and Sora first before losing them and finding Dolorosa; Psi and Disciple were there to and with the absence of Signless Suzaku stepped into the roll of leader to keep his friends safe. After many fights, his Geass ensuring his survival and a descent into pain and madness they finally died against Condesce. The Geass was still active Suzaku was just so destroyed that living wasn't even possible anymore.
After a brief punishment in his destroyed world they came back and Signless disappeared, Psi disappeared not long after and Suzaku was lost. The two people who had done most to keep him sane were gone. Lelouch did his best but his adamancy that he was no longer a emperor and Suzaku was not his knight just led to a crisis in Suzaku.
He tried to keep going as normal; he was recruited into the fellowship and the night watch even if he didn't feel like a hero anymore, he agreed because he wanted to help but he was beginning to distance himself from everyone. After all he kept hurting people, or losing them and so he kept himself to himself.
Which takes us to infighting.
He was in Riki's group, so apart from headaches things weren't so bad. He was utterly horrified to see what had happened to those in Jason's pod and was quick to agree to help Minato and Jin.
But then he was killed so that was the end of that. His pod death was actually one that effected him the most; in some ways it was everything he wished for in canon. He was killed and that meant others weren't. However being exploded hit very close to home and he freaked a bit.
To make things even worse Lelouch had disappeared. He spent June helping those in the tower, fighting hell hounds and generally trying to forget everything that had happened. The tower gained another Signless and Suzaku met him; but purposfully kept his distance. He didn't deserve such a friend and if this one didn't know him it was probably for the best.
When an attempt to rescue those in the pods was suggested Suzaku jumped on it, it failed miserably. And made everything a thousand times worse and Suzaku blamed himself more. Lelouch's return made things even worse, he had gone crazy from seeing his dead world and blamed Suzaku for it. Blamed him for destroying the world, leaving it to die, leaving Lelouch to die. Opening old wounds once more.
Suzaku then took a little trip to the ruins of his dead world himself, two weeks alone to ponder what Lelouch had said to him. On returning he was immediately confronted with a Geassed OU Minato killing everything. He and Ryoji took him down, killing him to stop the Geass. Suzaku now believed himself to be only good for murder. Lelouch told him he had done it because of Suzaku, to stop him moping.
Cue giant angsty hero complex breakdown. He spent the next few weeks sulking, fighting with Jin. He attended the fellowship but didn't say much, no longer believing himself able to help. He did make up with Lelouch somewhat after Lelouch was taken down by the dream event. But their relationship is still shakey, especially since Lelouch still keeps Geassing Suzaku's friends. Except he doesn't think of them as his friends anymore because he doesn't deserve them.
Rolo and Nunnally arriving in quick succession worried Suzaku, as did the confrontation with Lelouch's shadow but he didn't have much time before he was forced into Jin's body.
The bodyswap really did cut the last thread holding Suzaku to his sanity. Forced into Jin's body and having a murder persona in his head, reitterating what Suzaku felt himself; added to the loss of the Geass...
It wasn't surprising he went crazy, he didn't take the suppressants because he felt he deserved the suffering. He tried to die because there was a chance he wouldn't come back and he thought Jin would want to die as well. Everyone stopping him surprised him though he knew they were doing it for Jin not for him.
Learning that people cared so much about Jin was a revelation both because of his history with him and Jin's own memories. He was eventually stopped and switched back.
Once Moros was out of his head he was able to be a little more functional and guilt took over. As we stand now he is sorry for how much he messed up, believes he is only deserving of hate and is prepared to avoid people as much as possible. He realises how wrong it was to try and kill Jin, and how futile it is to try and kill himself.
He doesn't even care that much about taking down the admin anymore because in his mind he is as bad as them.
Aaaand my baby.
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His character development is mostly growing up. When he first arrived the tower was not too bad, he didn't like the idea that the world had ended but everyone said it was a lie and they were all cleverer than him so they must be right. He was unsure what to think because if it were a lie then their rescuers were bad people; yet they seemed nice the one time they came into the tower to talk to them.
He made friends quickly, Romeo tends to make strong friendships that are very important, like Alfredo in canon. Molly was his first friend in the tower and they were pretty much inseparable. He spent the first month of so running around pretending to be a super hero and enjoying the freedom of not having adults telling him what to do. Indeed the adults he met were kind to him. He was given regular food once he learned he could eat whatever he wanted from the cafeteria and all in all he gained confidence.
His first hint that everything was not what it seemed came when the tower grew for the first time. He entered the maze with Molly, Tavros, Ienzo and the Doctor and was haunted by terrifying images. The shadow event just after that proved to him that things were scary and bad here. That was the first time he died though he didn't realise what had happened at the time. Life continued he made more friends and more and more people started arriving. Still he believed despite the occasional scary thing this was an alright place, though he wanted to go home.
Then October happened but I have to go out so will continue this when I return
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Ken Amada
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I will attempt to remember what I can.
OKAY SO.
Ken showed up in the tower like. The night Shinjiro died. So that was a whole thing for him. He was basically suicidal - it had been his original plan - and was angry and upset and extremely untrusting of anyone other than the other members of Strega. He got killed by a collarswapped Minami, and learned that death isn't a permanent thing here.
Tower why.
Anyway then he got dragged into things - Romeo's bitty club, interactions with the other Persona users - and he very slowly started to open up. He and Kanji kind of... got along since they were both like 'don't treat me differently, dammit'.
Aaaand then the Labyrinth happened. Ken held out as long as he could, but when Shinjiro lost control of his Persona and it attacked him he got pretty scared. He held out as long as he could in the thing, but eventually got mercy killed by Minato. His Minato, mind. He didn't trust the other one at all.
Then Jason had his little Q&A thing, and Ken volunteered to take the place of the other members of Strega in experiments. They'd gone through enough shit, he thought if he could spare them more pain, it'd be enough.
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Asako Minegishi
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Then the Shadow trainwreck happened, and...
Thank you for summing it up, gif.
To elaborate, Asako learned during the event that she is a fragment of someone once alive. That one of the people she thought actually gave a damn, one of the people she felt she could trust with the knowledge of her freakish ability...well, she was quite wrong. In fact, maybe it had been for the best that she'd never trusted anyone with that truth.
Because in the end, one of the absolute truths in her world - that her cousin gave a damn - wasn't so, from what she could tell. Now, maybe she's wrong about this, but as far as she's concerned it is the truth.
Either way, Asa's despair meter climbed pretty close to full at this point and in the fight that followed. If
she had been SIGNED UP for itshe had been by herself, she probably would've gone over the brink and manifested a Shadow right then and there. She's not a person. She's replaceable. She can and will be replaced once she stops being useful, just as she can and will likely be dethroned once a stronger demon comes along - or once she wins the war.Besides, death isn't permanent here anyway...So there's really no point in worrying about the survival of a fragment in this place, not when it can be revived and replaced, you know?
To put it more coherently, Asako's kind of recovered, in that she's able to smile after that trainwreck of a network post she made - but she's probably never going to recover completely, and she's definitely become more reckless with her own safety. Oh, she'll still look out for others, of course, but her own life isn't quite a priority for her - and as Lancer's found out, she no longer gives a rat's ass about property damage. It's just a 'thing', after all. You know?
Minato Arisato (OU) | Persona 3
CONTEXT: Canon Point + Game Transplant Status
At his canon point, Minato have more or less gotten used to his role as the leader of SEES. He still defers to Mitsuru for meetings and discussions, but he take command on the field. At this point, he have more than enough time to get used to hearing the voices and the Social Links. Minato thought he's over the implications behind his Social Links.
...Until he found himself in Hell.
There, his skills and (lack of) knowledge of the future was put to the test. His experience in the Greek Underworld made him very protective of his friends and just anyone, because the cost of death is very heavy there. To die means having your soul belongs to Hades.
Not only that, but he also meet Minako there and get to know her. That, there, plants the seeds of doubt in his mind...as well as his problem with the both of them sharing the same life.
But he ignore it, in favour of survival and helping others.
...Until he found himself at the tower, after the change in the Gods' war.
IN THE TOWER...