[Natalia wonders what might have happened had she come here sooner, before Asch had grown so close to these people that she's never met. She wonders how different things would have been.
She can't deny that he seems genuinely happy. That is, perhaps, the most wonderful and terrible thing about this, both at the same time: That it's someone else able to bring out that faint smile. She would give anything to be able to make him smile that way, but since she can't, since she hasn't had the chance to yet...
She's relieved that he's not miserable. She's happy that he's happy. She wishes it was her, but she is happy for him.]
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[Natalia wonders what might have happened had she come here sooner, before Asch had grown so close to these people that she's never met. She wonders how different things would have been.
She can't deny that he seems genuinely happy. That is, perhaps, the most wonderful and terrible thing about this, both at the same time: That it's someone else able to bring out that faint smile. She would give anything to be able to make him smile that way, but since she can't, since she hasn't had the chance to yet...
She's relieved that he's not miserable. She's happy that he's happy. She wishes it was her, but she is happy for him.]
I hope they know how lucky they are.